I can't...

... sleep

Been having insomnia for God knows how long... Sleepless, tired, blank, kind of stressed and worried, combined with feelings of miserable apathy.

For once, I don't feel as if I am behind, feels alright, but something's missing...

Good luck to everyone who's having finals these days, I feel you, will be in the same crappy situations come July...

Untitled...

Another untitled (but short) post

Fate can act in a curious way
When all that mattered means nothing today
All that concerns me, that drenches my thoughts
Is the sensation that seeing you brought

I was alone out there, with no one else around
Now I've fallen for you, and there's no coming down

Things to ponder

Random, very random...

Some things to consider in the next two or so years, thanks A!

Cornell, MBA, Masters, GRE, GMAT, TOEFL (Again... Argh), SAT, GOETHE, DELF (Not sure about this one)

Thinking about starting another blog, one where I post lyrics that resemble my ever-changing moods and/or my thoughts.

Time to... Start doing something

Dreams...

Now here we go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who I am to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost And what you had And what you lost

[Chorus]
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say women they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness Like a heartbeat...drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
What you had And what you lost

[Chorus]
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say women they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know


*sigh*

Can't even find myself...

... in the choices I make

So odd, so insecure, so unusual... This is how I feel now, when you think you're well aware of what is going on in your life and your small world, only to realise you're so lost and so clueless about everything and everyone who it consists of.

When you try to convince yourself that this whole life is a one big fat arsed game. If you do not know how to play the rules of the game, you pay the price to play it. If you DO know how to play it, someone else pays it...

If only one would have the will to change things, but what if changing things around means that you have to let go of what you lived by for all your life? Your habits, the people, the thoughts, the mentality and beyond, the good and the bad of all of them...

So lost... so... alone...

One of these days where you feel you're on Mars and everyone else is partying on the moon while you're physically in the same freakin' room/space with them, but your mind and thoughts are elsewhere

Fade...

Fade…

Note: This was written yesterday afternoon

OK, after a minor encouragement, I decided to update this little blog of mine, I always wondered why the spell checker always shows that “blog” is NOT correct, showing alternatives to weird words like bloc, bog, blot, etc.

Anyway, at the time of writing I was at the pool, this is looking quite nerdy, picture a guy tanning while typing away on his laptop!! Actually, I got so bored sitting at home doing nothing, so decided to go outside for a bit and wait for my car to come back, finally got to fix the stupid dent…

Been off for about 10 or so days already, got 13 more days till school resumes… Enjoying sleeping at random hours, going out cruising at weird hours and not having many things to worry about, I should be thankful that all my parents expect from me at the time being is attend classes when I have any and pass my courses, almost nothing else. Well, they obviously expect me to not do stupid things like come back home trashed or break a leg and some other body parts by jumping off the second floor of a building!

OK, I will talk now about a couple of things, they might be unrelated or sound ‘normal’ or ‘3adi’ as we say in Arabic, but they meant something to me. Last week, while being in a similar state of boredom, decided to go out and start walking late at night, really late. It wasn’t one of my usual thirty or so minute strolls, I actually was crazy enough to walk all the way from my house to my university and back (Excluding the last 1 or 2 kilometers where I couldn’t walk anymore and went home by cab), I have no clue how long the distance is, but it took me about 2 hours and a half to get there including tiny toilet breaks and refueling myself with H2O…My feet and legs hurt me for the next 3 days, left leg was bleeding after coming back home, but heck, it was fun nevertheless! As “S” once asked me, “when was the last time you did something for the first time?” This was the last time I think.

That leads me to my next point, I was talking about my long (and crazy) walk with an online friend the evening after, and mentioned how much my lower body generally felt (It hurt, obviously), earlier today while talking, she popped a simple question. All what she said was, “How is your foot by the way?” it was a pretty straightforward one as well, but what made me ponder it is that I haven’t been asked such an unpredictable question for a while… Questions out of nowhere that relate to things you got over or forgot, but were so important and overwhelming not so long ago… Enquiries that show sincere curiosity about our so-called wellbeing & feelings… There’s nothing wrong with them, they’re actually appreciated… But it’s the combination of the timing, the circumstances and the current lack of such enquiries that makes one halt and start thinking… Or maybe it’s only me and my weird thoughts.

Been forcing myself to eat over the past 3 days, have had those shitty mood swings for a while now, they suck, but heck, people can’t be the same every single day, maybe some people are better at hiding how they feel and their mood swings, but it’s not easy to control them or at least hide them ALL the time… We’re not freakin’ robots

As usual, been listening mostly to the same Staind stuff in addition to house & trance (TATW 153 KICKS ASS, personal highlights: Inner Touch, Analog Feel, Paul Moelands’ remix of Beautiful, Sjamaan, Bluebird & Deep Breath Love Over Sedna), there’s a song that reminds me of someone special whom I miss their presence in my life, it might indicate otherwise, but this just relates to the last two months ONLY when things have taken the wrong turns time and time again… Maybe time will get things ‘back to normal’ somehow, and maybe it just won’t. People forgive, well, I did, but they do not forget, but fuck that, I am willing to forget and open a new page as they say… I might be “inconsiderate & pushy” at times, but I’ll boast here: My loyalty determination, dedication to the cause and anything I put my mind to and anyone I really like are all second to none, and these are traits that the people whom know me well (Including that person) know. Will she ever read this? Well, I would appreciate it, but at the same time I would be surprised if she did… anyway, enough blabbing, here are the song’s lyrics

I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
the thought is too
Much to conceive

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surfaceI am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do



And oh, in case any smart asses are wondering, I am still at the pool now, but I will attach the lyrics when I have access to the internet. Yesterday I had my laptop with me while cruising in my father’s car, I wanted to check something on it so I pulled to the side of the road, and to my surprise, there were two wireless connections detected, unfortunately there aren’t any here. Talking about his car, it’s nice to abuse the prowess of an overratedV6 like the one he drives (Pajero)…

Clubbing front: Saw Ferry Corsten & Nick Warren, top djs, quality guys as well… Was kind of gutted that Ferry didn’t play “I Love You”, but I was going mental when he played a couple of songs I requested (The Ones We Loved & his own remix of Adagio For Strings). Nick Warren rocked the house the following Friday, “1983” & “Mr. Brightside” still stuck in my head since then, wish he had played the latter at the end of his set though like he did in Lebanon last May at the defunct Beirut Train Station… Looking forward to Christopher Lawrence in two weeks time :-)

krazi :-)

So, time to update this little blog of mine… Its funny how I always feel like updating it when I am busy, but when I am free I go blank! (Like now for instance). Interesting weekend, watched Will Smith’s movie “Pursuit of Happyness”, quite a fascinating story, great deterimination, went after that for shisha at Fudo (Gotta love that place!), ending it with my usual late night cruising in Jumeirah.

Friday was one hell of a day! Was told late on Thursday night that the VW & Audi club here in the UAE are organizing a drive to Abu Dhabi & Al Ain, was so much fun! Took some wicked pics and videos, I just hope that no radars caught me, was speeding over the generous speed limit! (I just couldn’t resist it ;)). We went as well to Jabal Hafeit in the outskirts of Al Ain, the highest mountain in the UAE, when back in Dubai we went for shisha at La Marquise, was cool as I got to shower and change after that long day (My house is within walking distance). I don’t recall I ever drove for such a long distance (500+ kilometres) in one day, was it worth it? Hell yeah! Can’t wait till the DVD for the trip is out! Was well planned by M and co., S should join with his yellow devil the next time around! Just a note to myself: Don’t eat a lot zeit & za3tar at night!

Finally went to Peppermint as usual although I was dead tired, the Japanese master Satoshie Tamie was on the decks, unique mixing style I should say, can’t comment on track selection really as I couldn’t ID a single track (As if I am THAT knowledgeable as far as EDM is concerned!) but it wasn’t as uplifting as I hoped, lacked ‘energy’ IMHO apart from the last 15 or so minutes. But on the other hand I learned something, I should NOT listen to a lot of trance before going out, that usually builds up a different ‘mood’, and you can figure from the videos posted that trance was on full blast for most of the journey! Apart from bits when I switched to beloved Staind & tuned to some warm-up tunes, don’t recall by whom, either Greg Stainer or Judge Jules (Or maybe even both or neither! mixing up between Thursday and Friday night I guess!) Saturday was a typical day, nothing really exciting, ventured around blogland, studied for a bit, uploaded some stuff and finally went to the mall to do some shopping and have dinner with mates from high school.

Car’s due to be serviced today, I dread the consequences, I know for sure that the brakes and the suspension perhaps, speakers and the dent in its body have to be sorted out, God knows what else might need fixing or changing (gears maybe?). I hate being car-less, even for a short period… Will have to rely on the driver to pick me up and drop me for tomorrow at least (Jeez, how spoiled). I hope I get it back ASAP, got to change a thing or two in it as well next month. Will see if I can have the S4 bodykit put on it as well!

The partner of one of the VW & Audi lovers had an amazing looking mobile, turned out to be called HTC S620, a hybrid/collaboration between I-Mate & Q-Tek, thin, full-keyboard, nice screen and it has style, something that can’t be said about most I-Mates out there. Got my eye on it, It’s on sale at Plug-ins, and the price is not bad. Went there late last night, it was out of stock at the Madinat branch but they can get it. Sales executive there recommended it over the SE P990i.

Came across this today, was mentioned by the lecturer. Quite fascinating, people became lendant dollar millionaires (And on the other hand some lost a lot of money), funny how obsessed we can get with virtual, well, in this case it becomes virtual reality. Companies held meetings on it instead of doing so in an actual meeting room physically. You learn something new everyday!

Enough blabbing for now… I am pretty sleepy, thus, no personal messages this time around :-D, when I am fully-awake I might be in a blast & bash mood =p

Tag time!

Hello people... I've been tagged by Jaz, I have to talk about 5 obstacles I encountered when I started my journey in the maze of blogland

1. I don’t know about Wordpress, but for Blogspot, before the new beta/google version was introduced, one had to struggle with everything. Changing a small little thing like a ‘link’ would require a lot of messing around with the HTML codes and such.

2. Time constraints. I did and I still struggle with consistency, I don’t update my blog too often, the reason for that though is that I’ve involved myself in one-too-many things online, I lost track of all the forums, online communities, photo sharing websites, news sites, etc. that I am supposed to frequent! It also a mood issue! I need at least 30 or 40 hours in a day to be able to do everything! Unfortunately I will have to battle like the rest of the world with the measly 24-hour days we have ;)

3. Finding what to write about… I think I even mentioned that in my first ever blog entry, I had no clue what to write about… Ended up filling this cyberspace with a lot of personal stuff and what I’ve been up to (Or not)

4. Wondering who’d read it, well, it’s not an obstacle but in a sense it was puzzling me if anyone bothers/bothered to drop by and actually visit again =p

5. Layout and how it looks… I don’t bother much about that now as I find it neat and somewhat professional the way it currently is :)

Another post to follow with what happened yesterday!

p.s. a bit rude & mean (But who said I am nice anyway? I can be but depends), but have to say it nevertheless to some people:
Don’t like my attitude? E-mail us at feedback@FUCK-OFF.COM
At least I BOTHER

Staind

Great week as far as uni and family and concerned, small sister resumed class, father's happy, sister has been offered a great training offer (Well, great on paper and benefits, not in actual working conditions, but that is Dubai for you). She just called to tell us that she's been offered a job interview at Dubai Media City tomorrow, so happy for her! Personally, things are normal, chilling and enjoying being almost free, I like crash courses. You don't have to multi-task and balance one thousand things at the same time, just got one thing to concentrate on & khalas! Got a quiz tomorrow as usual, not bothered to study yet. So far this is my third crash course and it's been pretty smooth (Hamdilla), the last one was OK, but lacked organization and proper communication between the lecturers and us (Risk assessment project anyone?!)

Yesterday (Well, technically it was today as it was 1 am), went on my longest walk to date, about 2.5 hours, Sheikh Zayed Road, stopping to fetch water from star bucks, on to dhiyafa road, a nature call and refuelling with more H2O at a petrol statio (In addition to bumping into a coupla 'friends' I didn't even recognize), moved on to Jumeira beach road and then finally heading back home. Equipped with a jacket and the trusty iPod, was (and still in) a Staind mood... Switched to Trance Around The World (Episode # 133) for the last hour or so to give me a final push, Kuffdam & Plant's "The Ones We Love" is one of them vocal trance tracks that make you grin like an idiot but be on the verge of depression at the SAME TIME. *Take a deep breath love*

From the Staind songs I listened to, "Falling Down", it's such an amazing track, I think everyone can relate themselves to the words of this song at some point or another of their lives. *sigh*

Was thinking about the people who left (And came), L is gone for a month, the two Ss are busy, busy, busy with work (Bless you two!), A is back but couldn't give a flying fuck for someone who wouldn't give a toss back, another S is still country-hopping somewhere in Europe but due to come back soon (We will go to Bizza hut and mcdonalds again I assume) and the final S is in a certain autocratic country getting tipsy while H is being sent into a state of shock after shock (Thanks to her uni), R is "fayet bel 7ei6", like me, should see him today. Good luck to you all! (Even the ones I couldn't bother about, they need it)

Clubbing front: Satoshie Tomie, Tiesto, Ferry Corsten, Nick Warren, John Digweed and God knows whoelse are all coming in the next 2 months. Can't wait till I see Ferry live again, wicked, wicked few weeks coming up!

And oh, get well soon kus kus!!!

Kaputt...

Hmm... Tired, sleepy, stressed and to some extent: lonely... Fate and things can change so dramatically and radically suddenly... Don't know what to say really, but I hope that amazing state returns somehow... Everyone needs to talk and express themselves somehow I guess.

I am still relatively clueless and out of it... One can't adjust to a massive change in such a short notice, maybe to make matters worse: never adjusting.

Keeping one's fingers crossed, in addition to hope and pray is the best I could do, for the time being

*sigh*

Feel like taking photos...

I feel like going out and start taking pictures now... I really do... Can't do so though, both cameras are out of order (Lens issues)...
Also feel like going out cruising and listening to some more trance... But can barely move...
Wish I could go jog... Too tired to do so though

It's official... I am back to my very worst... I am as clueless as I've ever been, I'm in shambles all over again... I lost any sense of direction that I ever had... I just want time to pass... I don't want to look forward to anything because the future's bleak... Anyway, que sera, sera... Should revert back to having NO expectations whatsoever in life in order to be 'surprised' (hopefully positively) by whatever it throws my way... But all in all, things are pretty messed up generally...

On a bright note, Liverpool have given Chelsea the freakin' hiding that they deserved... The special one can stuff his injury excuses up his backside and can whine and rant as much as he wants, the team in Red that was playing was not worth 25% of the scumbags in the blue shirts, yet we OWNED them... Now if only we would carry on from this game and kick butt for the rest of the season... Still, there are 42 points up for graps... So let's see how things go :-_

Finally decided to blab...

First of all, I would like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas (Bit late though), Eid Mubarak and a happy new year!

Haven’t posted for over a month now, since I turned 20 to be precise… Feeling very apathetic now, couldn’t care less about anything, so numb, so lost… I finally have a brief break now which is due to come to an end in a few days as classes resume again, but heck, at least it will give me an excuse for everything that might go wrong. I was waiting for this break for ages to sort out stuff and get things sorted out but been too lazy to do anything significant (But I cleaned up my room maybe that counts!).

I don’t know what is the point of posting this anyway, doubt many will read it, much has happened, but due to my indifferent attitude I would struggle to remember many things which might be far more important than what’s to be written, but anyway, here are some random things/updates in the next few lines…

I was a pain in the ass in the group projects we had at uni, shame on me… Not motivated at all… Everyone was so stressed back then and during the finals period, and then you had me, the so-called former top student sleeping in the middle of group meetings and dozing off for hours rather than napping for a couple of hours before a final exam, three grades are out already and I got two Bs and a B-, it’s O.K., I just want the freaking 19 months to end ASAP.

Now I finally have a cat! Yes! I really do! It’s a lovely three-month old male Persian cat, it has some sort of an identity crisis though, I call him katkoot, my elder sister chose a weird name: Spider (!) and my smaller sister insists on calling him Lolo, but anyway, he’s a bit dumb, playful but mind you, he sleeps a LOT! But on the other hand, what is a single (lol) cat supposed to do really apart from eat, shit and sleep?! Thanks to my amazing girl for showing me the cute thing online initially, inshalla you will get your own lovely katkoot my K! For the time being, I have to face some competition from the white kitten :-D

Since I mentioned my SM… She’s the best thing that has happened to me in recent memory, it’s true that we sometimes have bad moments and some arguments, but we always seem to resolve them and it just gets us even more closer… Nothing’s gonna shake us! HOUSE ON HAYATI! Toz bil fejel! *I love with the thought of possession yaba*

A couple of good friends are gone for three months now, one went to Germany to basically freeze her ass off and the other’s gone to Saudi to chill his ass (Ans muscles) off… Will miss them big time, I wasn’t able to hang out with them as much as I wanted during the semester, but I sincerely hope we somehow will manage to spend more time during next semester… Fingers crossed! Have a blast!

Clubbing front: Hmm, been a month dominated by Peppermint, started off with a brilliant set from the Dutch master, the person who’s making trancers go into a ‘state of trance’ all the time: Armin Van Buuren! Next came Sander Van Doorn, missed that one though but been to the following two parties which were basically back-to-back sets by the resident DJs: Afroboogie & MadJam… Boy, sometimes these two guys leave us thinking to ourselves: We don’t need international djs every weekend! This wek, Bon Sinclair and Aramnd Van Halden were in town, didn’t go as I had a cold, plus, they were at a club I detest, small, overcrowded with idiots, picky bouncers and not a so good vibe or atmosphere about it (Referring to Trilogy), OK, Peppermint is basically a ballroom cum club, but the guys behind it are so good at what they’re doing that personally, it has more of a club feel to it than the Jumeirah clubs (Boudoir, Apartment, Trilogy and the rest). It’s the nearest thing Dubai has at the moment to a ‘rave’ club, somehow reminds me of the only club I have been to in Lebanon: The Warehouse (Which is literally a warehouse turned into a huuuge club)… Anyway, I am not a big fan of Bob Sinclair that much :-P.
I went yesterday to Apartment club, the original plan was to go to 360 degrees bar/lounge but it was closed due to the cold weather and the strong winds out there, so opted to go to the s**thole, to be honest, the resident DJ they have there is the worst I’ve seen since I started partying less than two years ago, poor mixing/transitions/EVERYTHING, bad choice of tracks, very, very cheesy set, for f**k’s sake who plays “Put your hands up for Detroit” right after a masterpiece like Supermode’s “Tell me why”? Not to mention that I think it was the first time i ever heard the voice of Eminem in a club! Was my first visit to the place in over three or four months, think it will be another 4 months till I even think of visiting that shithole again.

Enough blabbing I guess… I need to sleep, today’s a busy day, got to buy tickets for PAUL OAKENFOLD’S gig tonight at the Dubai World Trade Centre in addition to some whistles and glow lights (RAVE MOOD!). Might finally get an external storage drive to put all the excess music I have and live sets on in addition to an iTrip and a car charger for my stupid power consuming mobile in order to be able to stay in touch with ‘her’… It’s a crappy feeling when we’re having the time of our lives messaging only to be hit with the stupid low battery warning on the dam thing! *I need ya, I need ya sooo much!* “Cassandra Fox’s classic: Touch Me”

Some messages:
K & K: Love ya!
S: You’re a wonderful person, people out there just don’t appreciate individuals like you because they’re messed up in the head... Screw them!
S, S & S: Miss you :(, have a great vacation though!
M: Where (And why!) do you disappear?
M: Stop it! I like you, you are a good friend, but if you want to know what’s up there are better ways to know! And also, if you do not mean your words, then simply don’t promise anything! (The second bit goes to me as well sometimes)
A: I thought you were my best friend… Too bad, you don’t even recognize me anymore… It’s YOUR LOSS afterall… Might make me sound big-headed, but that’s the case I guess
E: Stop asking the same questions over and over again, I know you don’t care, if you did, you'd remember
S: Where do you disappear as well? Good luck with everything nevertheless
R: What’s wrong?! This has been the case for years, why do you have the same effed up reaction every single time?

Post over… Maybe someone will enjoy reading this crap 30 years from now! :)

I Love You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZmBo-lmZDk

Fell in love with this track... Trying to find it as an mp3, it's so freakin' amazing... Stuck in my head for the past two days...

8 more hours and I say goodbye to my non-existent teenager life!

I'm Not Dead

I'm not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight

I'm not dead just yet
I'm not dead I'm just floating
Doesn't matter where I'm going
I'll find youI'm not scared at all
Underneath the cuts and bruises
Finally gained what no one loses
I'll find you
I will find you


Expect a proper post soon... How soon? No clue... Depends on my mood...

And here is your late, late doze of bullsh*t

Well, another late, late night update… Here I am in my cold room lying on my bed, supposed to be reading about China’s fascinating culture, but I keep distracting myself from studying for the upcoming midterms.

I don’t understand life, I don’t understand where I stand in this world and I certainly have no clue what lies in the future… Why do things happen? How are things related in this vicious cycle called life? Why don’t I understand things unless I was thoroughly engrossed in them or if I came to know of them from the very start?

Those feelings that suddenly appear from nowhere hurt, moments of worthlessness and futility haunt me, willingness to disprove myself disappears when faced with my indifference in yet another stunning vicious cycle of eternal internal conflict.

Also: Am I living on a whole different planet to everyone else?! Why is it so hard to integrate?! I am thankful that I am not desperate at all to fit-in with any group as I am fully-convinced after 19 years which make up my relatively short life so far that I will never fully be part of a group or a particular cult no matter how hard I try. I cannot be arsed really nowadays but it surprises me how hard it is for me while it is so natural to others… Anyway, one thing I learned from my adorable, beautiful and amazing soul mate and the few decent people I can consider good friends: If one likes you, they would like you for who you are, not for whom they want you to be or due to materialistic and shallow reasons such as how you look or dress for instance or your credit limit (Which is still non-existent anyway in my case).

Sometimes I wonder: What -and why-the f**k am I BSing, seems it’s a new hobby.

One last note: As usual, God bless you bibi! Hehe, I should be trying to sleep now if there is any chance of making it today, but heck, challenges are lovely :)

Somewhat lost

Don’t know how to organize my thoughts and think of what to write, it’s not like I usually do that but I put some little thought before writing, but for now, I’ll just BS…

Exhausted, full, sleepy, satisfied yet somehow depressed at the same time… Been up since 2 AM yesterday (In other words, been up for over 19 hours). Had my first midterm, went well thankfully (For a change), had a long day at uni, have another long day as well tomorrow, there are rumours circulating that we have another midterm tomorrow but the teacher seems to have gone AWOL or something, now I can’t study even if I had to, I can’t be arsed to open a book now, too drained emotionally and physically

In life, when we simplify things and make it so straight-forward someone must come from nowhere and screw things up and complicate matters (And vice versa, when one complicates things other make them seem to be so simple and easy)… WHYYY?! It’s killing me... It’s hard enough to find people to have decent and constructive conversations with, let alone friends and certainly let alone soul mates. You simply do NOT find such people hanging on trees or auctioned somewhere on eBay (Or Souq for that matter)… Reality hurts, but one must try their best to get along and make do with what they’ve got… I hate saying goodbye, who likes it anyway? I know I should be thankful and extremely appreciative for everything but I find that quite hard, I’m insatiable in some way I guess, always wanting more… Patience might be the key though. I reckon it is our only choice.

Well, as our lovely song goes *everything is beautiful, let the music carry you, maybe I will follow you forever!*… Bless you and see you next week despite everything bibi! Allah la ye7remna min ba3ad bas ;)

Ball, Peppermint-doze, Souq, etc.

Finally decided to update my blog, over the past two or three weeks I sometimes sat down and started typing only to change my mind and postpone it to a later time…
Well, nothing much has changed really, still so terribly out of touch, sleeping and eating disorders remained but not as severe as they were during Ramadan… So, some bits and pieces from my very ‘interesting’ life (Yeah right!)

The Academy’s ball was on Thursday, was an overrated one (Typical of the Academy), people complained about the limited selection of complimentary alcoholic beverages (Yeah, as if we usually get free wine and champagne everyday), but I couldn’t care less, had a great evening thanks to K, L & S, hope they did as well! Things didn’t go exactly as planned though but heck, we’re still alive & kicking (And trancing :D)

Been to Peppermint on Friday again, Usual Suspects (Resident DJs Afroboogie and Madjam) and loved it as usual! MadJam’s set was great (Maybe because I managed to recognize several of the tracks he played, something that can’t be said about Afro’s set or Hernan Cattaneo’s set the week before :p)… One track that I fell in love with was Changes – Chris Lake (Original vocal), really describes my life nowadays… I dedicated it right away to my best friend, we are having a week to forget now, but no matter what, you know that despite all the changes in our lives, I’ve got you by my side ;)… God bless you, always!

Uni’s been OK, got a quiz and three midterms in the space of one week, in addition to three projects to hand in the next four weeks, a couple of them are group projects and so far, despite having two ‘group meetings’ we haven’t done s**t. We’re a good group, but for some effing reason we’re too effing lazy to move our asses and start, but on the other hand, two of our group members seem to work best when under pressure so we might as a group do things last-minute and get a good grade, anyway, I am not THAT worried as I have that inner feeling that things will work out pretty well. We just need the time factor to kick in and the scare of handing it late to motivate us ;)

Talking about uni, I need that kick in the backside; I stopped worrying as much as I did during my first year at uni thanks to a very unproductive internship, after that internship I got to realise that being a ‘top’ student is useless when it comes to the workplace, it might help you land a better job but it’s what you do (Or at least the effort put in) is what matters… No HR manager/director will ask you why you got a B- in Finance let’s say or a D+ in Stats, it’s all BS to them, they’d only look at the school name! I hardly have any motivation or ‘fear’ to work hard anymore… I remember how I used to literally lose sleep over silly f**k-ups I made in small assignments, was like a perfectionist, I tried my best and hoped for the best but somehow knew how to get my way around things… Now I barely try my best, I barely do the required, I just want those damn 19 remaining months to pass by as quickly as possible. But as the saying goes, no pain, no gain.

Hmm, what else? Think my future plans are a bit more organized now, stay in Dubai after graduation, work for two or three years then start working on a part-time masters somewhere in Dubai (The Academy’s supposed to start such a programme soon, but I’d rather go somewhere else, AUD hopefully, assuming they have/will have anything). Fingers crossed that the Ritz Carlton will employ me! If that doesn’t work out, then I can always nag like the spoiled brat that I am to parents to ‘assist’.

Started going regularly to Souq.com, already bid on a small and cheap DVD player, a watch and a Motorola mobile phone besides a couple of food vouchers, I haven’t gone to the bank yet to apply for that damn credit card, I am so f***ing lazy, can’t wake up an hour earlier even if my life depended on it! Once I get that I will order a lovely Liverpool long-sleeved jersey, wondering what to write on the back, either Omie 11 or Omar 86. Anyway, whichever name and number I choose, it will be my favourite top! Liverpool have won the last four games in all competitions by the way, although all four were against mediocre opposition, Arsenal AWAY are next on the league fixture list and I hope it’s about time that we finally beat a ‘big’ team away, we never did that vs. Man Utd, Arsenal or Chelsea :S, Arsenal’s form has been up and down this season, they drew three games in which the opposition stifled their style of attacking football, I hope we beat them at their own game (Although we are faaar from an attractive attacking team like them)… We will see!

Looking for a new camera, my current one (Canon Powershot S2 IS) is just too big, guess I will opt to go for a point and shoot instead of going for a SLR one that I will never be able to use properly (Nikon D80 is the one I thought of getting lol!)… Seems I will go for the Kodak V610 although I never thought of Kodak as a good digital camera maker but it looked more attractive than the point-and-shoot Nikon cams and its got 10 optical zoom (AND Bluetooth!). Should have this one before the end of the month, actually thinking of bidding for it online as the price on Souq.com is almost half the retail price, why are cameras overpriced here?! The newer version of my current Canon costs AED 1,400 online, but almost AED 2,000 at local stores! Anyway, whatever will be, will be!

And oh, for f**k’s sake can someone tell me if Above & Beyond are spinning in town next week?! They’ve had Dubai as TBC for Nov 16th on their site but I’m still to read/hear anything about that! :S

Anyway… *Goes back to reading Rooms Division Management book*

p.s. K: You ROCK! I7na o bas o il ba2e 5as yaba. La 6eezna :D !

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Thanks to the Friendly Lion for helping me out with the settings for the amazing new beta blogs!

Looks quite cool and it is MUCH easier than having to figure out HTML codes!

Two posts in one day, hmm, that's a record :D

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Another update, yey!

Sitting in the auditorium at uni, quite early today, for the first time in a while the traffic was NORMAL! i.e., it didn’t take me more than 30 minutes to get to the Academy, yesterday it took me about 35 to 40 minutes to do that, while today it barely took 15 minutes, hope it is like this every single day :)

Got a tiny quiz in Economics later on today, studied as much as I can for it but it all sounds the same after repeating it… Think I should have invested my time in preparing for a midterm in French (Tomorrow), but there isn’t THAT much to study for in either.

Trying to find new places to study at and/or waste time at nowadays, Starbucks on SZR has been an obvious option (Besides being a good one of course), Shakespeare café is excellent as well, but I doubt it stays open until 2 AM like Starbucks! Been at Cosmo yesterday (Well, technically today as I was there at 1 AM) and noticed that they had other branches such as Hakawati in Marina and SZR and some other ones, I asked for specific directions/location details from the waiter and he had no clue (Predictable), heck, one of them had the phone number written and it started wit 04, thus meaning it was in DXB, when I asked the waiter he informed me it was in Abu Dhabi *Bangs head against table*

Less than a week left for Ramadan, and since I have no classes whatsoever on Sunday that could mean that I will have up to six days off (Normal Friday + Saturday, no classes on Sunday and three days of the Eid break from Monday – Wednesday, not bad at all! Haven’t got any plans really, not the type of person that plans things successfully, but I can confidently say that I will be at Peppermint (na3na3 club :D) on October 27th as Hernan Cattaneo will be back, missed his last gig due to the fact that I had to be in boring, boring Amman with the family. Had a laugh the other day, some people on Mahjoob believe that Paul Oakenfold, Ferry Corsten and another dj (I think Tiesto) will spin in Jordan in one single event, well, it would be good enough if one of them showed up, let alone all three!!

Got some pictures for you guys, guess it will spice up the blog a bit!
Hope you like them :)

More pictures at those links:
Random pics: 12/10/2006
Random Pics: 15/10/2006
And of course, my dA gallery :)

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Ramadan ranting + other stuff

Well, finally decided to post something on my little online blog, so much has been going in the past two or three weeks, school started (Well, it is university but I’d rather call it school), L’s turned nineteen, Ramadan started and it’s almost over (THANKFULLY!) and I finally found my soul mate.

I’ve been nagging throughout this holy month, and it’s due to a reason, I didn’t have such a bad case of sleeping disorders for such a long time, add to that eating disorders and lack of any proper studying. There’s no time to do anything really due to iftar, one is sleepy and hungry before iftar and is even sleepier and pressed for time after it. Ended up putting on weight and couldn’t really study anything in the past two weeks, something’s wrong and that is certainly Ramadan!

Been rather disconnected from many people lately, I should stay in touch far more often with some people but for some reason I haven't done so… I owe apologies to some people I guess, feel like a stranger sometimes, lost, but I am hoping that I get my ‘life’ sorted out soon. I must, got no choice to be honest. Somehow must find a balance between my studies and my so-called ‘social life’.

Hmm, after my parents got fed up of my ‘expenditures’ they decided to give me pocket money instead, it isn’t that bad, at least I can save up some money and do whatever I want as long as I have saved up enough money, on top of that, it is not that bad as I was promised a brand new laptop, I doubt I would get it before the end of the current semester in Mid February, but it should be well worth the wait as I can practically get any laptop I want (The magic words: Price is not an issue). Currently this is the one that I intend to get (Assuming that no better or newer and more attractive models are released from now till I finally get my new toy which I will hardly use =p)


Should be able to finally get my own credit card soon, Emirates Bank seem to offer the most suitable credit card for little students (Fa3afee6 :D) like me. Inshalla will call up the bank tomorrow and double-check what is required. It would be much easier to buy things online without going through the parents that way. *Expects to spend more time on souq.com now!* My next plastic

Hmm, my thoughts are mixed up, jumping from one topic to another as usual, but Ramadan is almost over, that means the return of club nights! The line-up is amazing, Groove Armada, Hernan Cattaneo, ATB, Axwell, Deep Dish, Max Graham amongst many others, S should be back for eid so that is a plus as well, Hernan Cattaneo the first to spin at the Peppermint club on the night of the 27th, whoaaa! I’ve gotten sick of trancing and dancing in my room and my car and sometimes even in public!! Need some MINT in my life… Can’t bloody wait. David Newsum informed me that Above & Beyond are expected to come back again to the little Apartment club at some point in January or February and guess what? On their official site two gigs in Dubai are yet to be confirmed in November and December, not bad at all, eh? ;)

Some personal messages to different people, no initials this time though.

- I know I should stay in touch more often, been bad to you guys :(.
- You’re so adorable, bless you! Maybe I will follow you forever ;).
- Had a blast with you guys! Hope we do it far more often :).
- You p*ss me off, don’t throw accusations around; we try our best but sometimes there’s a limit to what one can do.
- Don’t like it? F*** off!
- To me: Pleasing and satisfying everyone is impossible, you know it you idiot out of past experiences.
- I strongly dislike how you appear and disappear all the time, stop acting as if you are always ‘around’ when you are not there.

Hmm, guess that is enough ;)