June 20, 2009 (The date that this was actually typed out on, just didn't feel comfortable posting it right away)
Engrossed in quite a few (Well, at least a couple), and in all honesty (Which I something that I seemingly do not posses any of anymore) it sucks
Well, at least one loses their trust in you and in turn you lose your trust in someone else, karma is a b***h
Questioning the simplest things about myself that I’ve taken for granted... Should take a break from everything and everyone, note to self: some people are just not good (i.e. me). It’s not the age I’m in, it’s not the people, it’s simply me.
Maybe everything I do breeds contempt, not only familiarity…
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
TyDi feat. Audrey Gallagher - You Walk Away
With the night behind you
You walk away, and I will find you
We are locked in this emotion
We will find the way home
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
And it's too late
To remember all the words we say
Nothing will ever be the same
When the world surrounds you
You take your place with me, behind you
These are every word unspoken
This is our way home
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
When the world surrounds you
You walk away...
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
And it's too late
[To remember] all the words we say
Nothing will ever be the same
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
You walk away...
Thanks to "STSFD"
You walk away, and I will find you
We are locked in this emotion
We will find the way home
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
And it's too late
To remember all the words we say
Nothing will ever be the same
When the world surrounds you
You take your place with me, behind you
These are every word unspoken
This is our way home
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
When the world surrounds you
You walk away...
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
And it's too late
[To remember] all the words we say
Nothing will ever be the same
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
You walk away...
Thanks to "STSFD"
Monday, June 08, 2009
Familiarity…
Familiarity…
Inspired by a ‘sista’ from another mother, SA…
Familiarity breeds contempt… I don’t know what brought that expression to mind, but it’s been lingering in my head for the past few days, it basically opens up my naïve, oblivious and undiscerning eyes to a small, yet crucial aspect of human interactions…
I shall vow to keep my distance and not get close to anyone, regardless of the gender or nature of the relationship (Working/professional, mere acquaintance or even a potential partner). That is unless it is willingly sought after by both parties (Obviously does not have to be written in stone, it may be on a subconscious level)
When you veer away from getting too engaged and involved with something and/or someone, you somehow ensure some peace of mind, it allows you to retain some ability to observe see, analyze and judge things as an outsider, because you are not fully-engrossed with whichever thing it may be, it removes the personal bias and similarly it preserves some neutrality to a certain extent… I hold no regrets, I might come across as a remorseful person sometimes, but at the end of the day, everything happens for a reason and it is all God’s will, as we Muslims say "قدر الله و ما شاء فعل"...... We learn from life, perhaps it’s good to mess up every once in a while, it’s a learning curve of life, part and parcel of ‘growing up’…
One further snippet of random thoughts- It is ironic that beneath fancy façade of each and every one of us hides a character that is far, far from perfect… Sadly some hide their respective blemishes rather well and draw everyone around them to their nonexistent traits… Would rather refer to as the Souness Nobody’s vs. Everybody’s Fool Syndrome…
What a pity… Many people definitely know how to talk the talk, too bad you’re massively lacking on the walk the walk department (Worse enough, arguing about being more than capable walking the walk when sparing us your and hollow words and lies certainly does you more good than harm)… There’s a smart tactic called ‘damage limitation’, it does not only exist in wars and battles, extends to way beyond that…
Couple or so people very, very worthy of a salutation:
S- I don’t care if I don’t interact with you for ‘eons’ so to speak, I/we don’t need to… It’s the type of unique thing where you don’t have to go through the typical formalities of staying in touch and all that crap that is so cliché … X
D- Well, you’re adorable in every single ‘snacking’ way =)
M- I wish ‘they’ could see you the way I see you...
G- I wish you would get off that edge and come back to your senses sooner rather than later… Hope it’s not too late, because you’re losing your real friends to gain some plastic friends… Trust me fella, it will be a very painful fall from grace when you fall down from that throne that you happen to be sitting on so high up there in the clouds…
L- Miss you!
I- Such a shame… Expected way more, too bad the fake façade is overwhelmingly convincing in your case
Inspired by a ‘sista’ from another mother, SA…
Familiarity breeds contempt… I don’t know what brought that expression to mind, but it’s been lingering in my head for the past few days, it basically opens up my naïve, oblivious and undiscerning eyes to a small, yet crucial aspect of human interactions…
I shall vow to keep my distance and not get close to anyone, regardless of the gender or nature of the relationship (Working/professional, mere acquaintance or even a potential partner). That is unless it is willingly sought after by both parties (Obviously does not have to be written in stone, it may be on a subconscious level)
When you veer away from getting too engaged and involved with something and/or someone, you somehow ensure some peace of mind, it allows you to retain some ability to observe see, analyze and judge things as an outsider, because you are not fully-engrossed with whichever thing it may be, it removes the personal bias and similarly it preserves some neutrality to a certain extent… I hold no regrets, I might come across as a remorseful person sometimes, but at the end of the day, everything happens for a reason and it is all God’s will, as we Muslims say "قدر الله و ما شاء فعل"...... We learn from life, perhaps it’s good to mess up every once in a while, it’s a learning curve of life, part and parcel of ‘growing up’…
One further snippet of random thoughts- It is ironic that beneath fancy façade of each and every one of us hides a character that is far, far from perfect… Sadly some hide their respective blemishes rather well and draw everyone around them to their nonexistent traits… Would rather refer to as the Souness Nobody’s vs. Everybody’s Fool Syndrome…
What a pity… Many people definitely know how to talk the talk, too bad you’re massively lacking on the walk the walk department (Worse enough, arguing about being more than capable walking the walk when sparing us your and hollow words and lies certainly does you more good than harm)… There’s a smart tactic called ‘damage limitation’, it does not only exist in wars and battles, extends to way beyond that…
Couple or so people very, very worthy of a salutation:
S- I don’t care if I don’t interact with you for ‘eons’ so to speak, I/we don’t need to… It’s the type of unique thing where you don’t have to go through the typical formalities of staying in touch and all that crap that is so cliché … X
D- Well, you’re adorable in every single ‘snacking’ way =)
M- I wish ‘they’ could see you the way I see you...
G- I wish you would get off that edge and come back to your senses sooner rather than later… Hope it’s not too late, because you’re losing your real friends to gain some plastic friends… Trust me fella, it will be a very painful fall from grace when you fall down from that throne that you happen to be sitting on so high up there in the clouds…
L- Miss you!
I- Such a shame… Expected way more, too bad the fake façade is overwhelmingly convincing in your case
Monday, March 02, 2009
Just for the effing record
I am only writing this up to remind myself of the happenings of the 1st of March, 2009.
It is a day when the victim and the convict were found out to be the same person, and the judge, the witnesses, the attorney and perhaps every other living creature in or around a courtroom that may exist (Including that bird that happens to be taking a dump outside the window that overlooks the courtroom).
Today was just further proof of the self-inflicted misery that I put myself in. I simply need to change to the better… I don’t know what to add really, I’m ashamed of myself… I have always thought that you lot were naïve and somewhat foolish, but I have proven to myself that I am not any better, I actually turned out to be even worse, with little or no self-respect or realization of one’s self worth and having little, or no dignity…
I will be fine, you lot will be fine… One day my head might be sorted out
p.s. Z, N & D – I :heart: you
It is a day when the victim and the convict were found out to be the same person, and the judge, the witnesses, the attorney and perhaps every other living creature in or around a courtroom that may exist (Including that bird that happens to be taking a dump outside the window that overlooks the courtroom).
Today was just further proof of the self-inflicted misery that I put myself in. I simply need to change to the better… I don’t know what to add really, I’m ashamed of myself… I have always thought that you lot were naïve and somewhat foolish, but I have proven to myself that I am not any better, I actually turned out to be even worse, with little or no self-respect or realization of one’s self worth and having little, or no dignity…
I will be fine, you lot will be fine… One day my head might be sorted out
p.s. Z, N & D – I :heart: you
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Ina Lillah...
When you think you have problems, think twice
When you tend to wonder what has gone wrong in your life, think twice
When you’ve just spent days whinging about immaterial and trivial matters and then something of that magnitude comes and delivers that long due slap in your sorry face, you realize that perhaps it’s not as bad as you might have thought…
You assume that things should take a certain pattern in life, in some magical due course, when they don’t take that course for a certain person, the first thing that comes to ‘mind’ in our short-sighted, critical and naïve thoughts is “what went wrong?”… Well, here is the deal for you and me, things do not necessarily “go wrong”, you might be the best thing since fucking sliced bread, but there is a small, tiny fact of life that is known as fate.
Someone passed away in our extended family earlier today, youngest amongst their siblings, out of the blue, had no symptoms whatsoever on the few occasions we met, but death knows has no age criteria, it has no prerequisites, it just happens… He might be in a better place now… I hardly really knew him, but that is irrelevant I reckon… Life and fate’s twists and turns…
When you tend to wonder what has gone wrong in your life, think twice
When you’ve just spent days whinging about immaterial and trivial matters and then something of that magnitude comes and delivers that long due slap in your sorry face, you realize that perhaps it’s not as bad as you might have thought…
You assume that things should take a certain pattern in life, in some magical due course, when they don’t take that course for a certain person, the first thing that comes to ‘mind’ in our short-sighted, critical and naïve thoughts is “what went wrong?”… Well, here is the deal for you and me, things do not necessarily “go wrong”, you might be the best thing since fucking sliced bread, but there is a small, tiny fact of life that is known as fate.
Someone passed away in our extended family earlier today, youngest amongst their siblings, out of the blue, had no symptoms whatsoever on the few occasions we met, but death knows has no age criteria, it has no prerequisites, it just happens… He might be in a better place now… I hardly really knew him, but that is irrelevant I reckon… Life and fate’s twists and turns…
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Rat race...
Good read...
The Rat Trap
The rat trap
by Mishal Kanoo on Wednesday, 26 November 2008
"From a young age we are taught that we should work. We work hard at school to get the best grades to go to university. We work harder at university to get a good job. And we work yet harder at the job to get that promotion. Finally, we work harder still to keep on getting promotions until we retire.
In the meantime, we fail to love our parents for taking care of us. We miss out on being children with time to laugh and play because we so want to be an adult.
We learn to hone our competitive edge to the degree that we forget our humanity sometimes. And as we grow older, we forget what it means to genuinely love unconditionally and the meaning of forgiveness.
Story continues below ↓
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Instead, we learn that everything is an obstacle that we must overcome or we will never reach the next stage. Look at the way electronic games are set up. It is a learned behavior. The child learns to fight and push forward but is never taught to share and include.
As a famous person once said, "you are either with me or with the enemy." This doctrine is not far from the hearts of many people. Perhaps they might not agree with the statement when it comes to politics, but I assure you, look around, and you will see it in abundance in everyday life.
We then bemoan about not having enough time to do all the things we wish we could do. We are more than ready to sacrifice our humanity for money because that is what many of us were taught to focus on. Some of us will work ten, twelve and sometimes fourteen hours a day, not because we need to, but because we have trained ourselves that this is the right way to show that we are dedicated to our work.
Of course there are people who genuinely work because there is no alternative for them to survive. But most of us look at work as a competition that we have to win.
That is the fruition of the learned behavior that we took from our childhood in school. We are graded in school, not to see what subjects we excel at, and thus should focus on - we are graded to see which of us has the ability to learn the system the fastest and thus ensure a better chance of survival in the work environment.
We are even often told that some things naturally present in one person's personality can be taught to others, rather than to celebrate our diversity. The new buzz word in business circles and at universities is ‘entrepreneurship'.
Some people actually believe they can teach this as a skill. What can be taught is the thought process and how to hone the skills by someone who has it in him or her, and gets paid to teach it. What cannot be taught is how to be an entrepreneur. So we learn yet another idea that will encourage us to compete even more for money, and that will ultimately result in us failing to focus on, or care about, humanity.
It is said that money is the root of all evil. I would contend that it is not money but the spirit of greed that money invokes that is the root of evil. Because if we allow acquiring things to be our goal in life, we lose vision of what is truly more important - ourselves. "
The Rat Trap
The rat trap
by Mishal Kanoo on Wednesday, 26 November 2008
"From a young age we are taught that we should work. We work hard at school to get the best grades to go to university. We work harder at university to get a good job. And we work yet harder at the job to get that promotion. Finally, we work harder still to keep on getting promotions until we retire.
In the meantime, we fail to love our parents for taking care of us. We miss out on being children with time to laugh and play because we so want to be an adult.
We learn to hone our competitive edge to the degree that we forget our humanity sometimes. And as we grow older, we forget what it means to genuinely love unconditionally and the meaning of forgiveness.
Story continues below ↓
advertisement
Instead, we learn that everything is an obstacle that we must overcome or we will never reach the next stage. Look at the way electronic games are set up. It is a learned behavior. The child learns to fight and push forward but is never taught to share and include.
As a famous person once said, "you are either with me or with the enemy." This doctrine is not far from the hearts of many people. Perhaps they might not agree with the statement when it comes to politics, but I assure you, look around, and you will see it in abundance in everyday life.
We then bemoan about not having enough time to do all the things we wish we could do. We are more than ready to sacrifice our humanity for money because that is what many of us were taught to focus on. Some of us will work ten, twelve and sometimes fourteen hours a day, not because we need to, but because we have trained ourselves that this is the right way to show that we are dedicated to our work.
Of course there are people who genuinely work because there is no alternative for them to survive. But most of us look at work as a competition that we have to win.
That is the fruition of the learned behavior that we took from our childhood in school. We are graded in school, not to see what subjects we excel at, and thus should focus on - we are graded to see which of us has the ability to learn the system the fastest and thus ensure a better chance of survival in the work environment.
We are even often told that some things naturally present in one person's personality can be taught to others, rather than to celebrate our diversity. The new buzz word in business circles and at universities is ‘entrepreneurship'.
Some people actually believe they can teach this as a skill. What can be taught is the thought process and how to hone the skills by someone who has it in him or her, and gets paid to teach it. What cannot be taught is how to be an entrepreneur. So we learn yet another idea that will encourage us to compete even more for money, and that will ultimately result in us failing to focus on, or care about, humanity.
It is said that money is the root of all evil. I would contend that it is not money but the spirit of greed that money invokes that is the root of evil. Because if we allow acquiring things to be our goal in life, we lose vision of what is truly more important - ourselves. "
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