I Love You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZmBo-lmZDk

Fell in love with this track... Trying to find it as an mp3, it's so freakin' amazing... Stuck in my head for the past two days...

8 more hours and I say goodbye to my non-existent teenager life!

I'm Not Dead

I'm not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight

I'm not dead just yet
I'm not dead I'm just floating
Doesn't matter where I'm going
I'll find youI'm not scared at all
Underneath the cuts and bruises
Finally gained what no one loses
I'll find you
I will find you


Expect a proper post soon... How soon? No clue... Depends on my mood...

And here is your late, late doze of bullsh*t

Well, another late, late night update… Here I am in my cold room lying on my bed, supposed to be reading about China’s fascinating culture, but I keep distracting myself from studying for the upcoming midterms.

I don’t understand life, I don’t understand where I stand in this world and I certainly have no clue what lies in the future… Why do things happen? How are things related in this vicious cycle called life? Why don’t I understand things unless I was thoroughly engrossed in them or if I came to know of them from the very start?

Those feelings that suddenly appear from nowhere hurt, moments of worthlessness and futility haunt me, willingness to disprove myself disappears when faced with my indifference in yet another stunning vicious cycle of eternal internal conflict.

Also: Am I living on a whole different planet to everyone else?! Why is it so hard to integrate?! I am thankful that I am not desperate at all to fit-in with any group as I am fully-convinced after 19 years which make up my relatively short life so far that I will never fully be part of a group or a particular cult no matter how hard I try. I cannot be arsed really nowadays but it surprises me how hard it is for me while it is so natural to others… Anyway, one thing I learned from my adorable, beautiful and amazing soul mate and the few decent people I can consider good friends: If one likes you, they would like you for who you are, not for whom they want you to be or due to materialistic and shallow reasons such as how you look or dress for instance or your credit limit (Which is still non-existent anyway in my case).

Sometimes I wonder: What -and why-the f**k am I BSing, seems it’s a new hobby.

One last note: As usual, God bless you bibi! Hehe, I should be trying to sleep now if there is any chance of making it today, but heck, challenges are lovely :)

Somewhat lost

Don’t know how to organize my thoughts and think of what to write, it’s not like I usually do that but I put some little thought before writing, but for now, I’ll just BS…

Exhausted, full, sleepy, satisfied yet somehow depressed at the same time… Been up since 2 AM yesterday (In other words, been up for over 19 hours). Had my first midterm, went well thankfully (For a change), had a long day at uni, have another long day as well tomorrow, there are rumours circulating that we have another midterm tomorrow but the teacher seems to have gone AWOL or something, now I can’t study even if I had to, I can’t be arsed to open a book now, too drained emotionally and physically

In life, when we simplify things and make it so straight-forward someone must come from nowhere and screw things up and complicate matters (And vice versa, when one complicates things other make them seem to be so simple and easy)… WHYYY?! It’s killing me... It’s hard enough to find people to have decent and constructive conversations with, let alone friends and certainly let alone soul mates. You simply do NOT find such people hanging on trees or auctioned somewhere on eBay (Or Souq for that matter)… Reality hurts, but one must try their best to get along and make do with what they’ve got… I hate saying goodbye, who likes it anyway? I know I should be thankful and extremely appreciative for everything but I find that quite hard, I’m insatiable in some way I guess, always wanting more… Patience might be the key though. I reckon it is our only choice.

Well, as our lovely song goes *everything is beautiful, let the music carry you, maybe I will follow you forever!*… Bless you and see you next week despite everything bibi! Allah la ye7remna min ba3ad bas ;)

Ball, Peppermint-doze, Souq, etc.

Finally decided to update my blog, over the past two or three weeks I sometimes sat down and started typing only to change my mind and postpone it to a later time…
Well, nothing much has changed really, still so terribly out of touch, sleeping and eating disorders remained but not as severe as they were during Ramadan… So, some bits and pieces from my very ‘interesting’ life (Yeah right!)

The Academy’s ball was on Thursday, was an overrated one (Typical of the Academy), people complained about the limited selection of complimentary alcoholic beverages (Yeah, as if we usually get free wine and champagne everyday), but I couldn’t care less, had a great evening thanks to K, L & S, hope they did as well! Things didn’t go exactly as planned though but heck, we’re still alive & kicking (And trancing :D)

Been to Peppermint on Friday again, Usual Suspects (Resident DJs Afroboogie and Madjam) and loved it as usual! MadJam’s set was great (Maybe because I managed to recognize several of the tracks he played, something that can’t be said about Afro’s set or Hernan Cattaneo’s set the week before :p)… One track that I fell in love with was Changes – Chris Lake (Original vocal), really describes my life nowadays… I dedicated it right away to my best friend, we are having a week to forget now, but no matter what, you know that despite all the changes in our lives, I’ve got you by my side ;)… God bless you, always!

Uni’s been OK, got a quiz and three midterms in the space of one week, in addition to three projects to hand in the next four weeks, a couple of them are group projects and so far, despite having two ‘group meetings’ we haven’t done s**t. We’re a good group, but for some effing reason we’re too effing lazy to move our asses and start, but on the other hand, two of our group members seem to work best when under pressure so we might as a group do things last-minute and get a good grade, anyway, I am not THAT worried as I have that inner feeling that things will work out pretty well. We just need the time factor to kick in and the scare of handing it late to motivate us ;)

Talking about uni, I need that kick in the backside; I stopped worrying as much as I did during my first year at uni thanks to a very unproductive internship, after that internship I got to realise that being a ‘top’ student is useless when it comes to the workplace, it might help you land a better job but it’s what you do (Or at least the effort put in) is what matters… No HR manager/director will ask you why you got a B- in Finance let’s say or a D+ in Stats, it’s all BS to them, they’d only look at the school name! I hardly have any motivation or ‘fear’ to work hard anymore… I remember how I used to literally lose sleep over silly f**k-ups I made in small assignments, was like a perfectionist, I tried my best and hoped for the best but somehow knew how to get my way around things… Now I barely try my best, I barely do the required, I just want those damn 19 remaining months to pass by as quickly as possible. But as the saying goes, no pain, no gain.

Hmm, what else? Think my future plans are a bit more organized now, stay in Dubai after graduation, work for two or three years then start working on a part-time masters somewhere in Dubai (The Academy’s supposed to start such a programme soon, but I’d rather go somewhere else, AUD hopefully, assuming they have/will have anything). Fingers crossed that the Ritz Carlton will employ me! If that doesn’t work out, then I can always nag like the spoiled brat that I am to parents to ‘assist’.

Started going regularly to Souq.com, already bid on a small and cheap DVD player, a watch and a Motorola mobile phone besides a couple of food vouchers, I haven’t gone to the bank yet to apply for that damn credit card, I am so f***ing lazy, can’t wake up an hour earlier even if my life depended on it! Once I get that I will order a lovely Liverpool long-sleeved jersey, wondering what to write on the back, either Omie 11 or Omar 86. Anyway, whichever name and number I choose, it will be my favourite top! Liverpool have won the last four games in all competitions by the way, although all four were against mediocre opposition, Arsenal AWAY are next on the league fixture list and I hope it’s about time that we finally beat a ‘big’ team away, we never did that vs. Man Utd, Arsenal or Chelsea :S, Arsenal’s form has been up and down this season, they drew three games in which the opposition stifled their style of attacking football, I hope we beat them at their own game (Although we are faaar from an attractive attacking team like them)… We will see!

Looking for a new camera, my current one (Canon Powershot S2 IS) is just too big, guess I will opt to go for a point and shoot instead of going for a SLR one that I will never be able to use properly (Nikon D80 is the one I thought of getting lol!)… Seems I will go for the Kodak V610 although I never thought of Kodak as a good digital camera maker but it looked more attractive than the point-and-shoot Nikon cams and its got 10 optical zoom (AND Bluetooth!). Should have this one before the end of the month, actually thinking of bidding for it online as the price on Souq.com is almost half the retail price, why are cameras overpriced here?! The newer version of my current Canon costs AED 1,400 online, but almost AED 2,000 at local stores! Anyway, whatever will be, will be!

And oh, for f**k’s sake can someone tell me if Above & Beyond are spinning in town next week?! They’ve had Dubai as TBC for Nov 16th on their site but I’m still to read/hear anything about that! :S

Anyway… *Goes back to reading Rooms Division Management book*

p.s. K: You ROCK! I7na o bas o il ba2e 5as yaba. La 6eezna :D !